All I used to be will pass away, and then you’ll see
That all I want now is happiness for you and me
One of my personal favorites of about 30 Elliott Smith songs that I could call favorite. This is such a beautiful song, and it gets stuck in my head quite often.
The lyrics are typically vague, but I always felt that this song is a straightforward narrative about one lover telling their former lover that whatever the reasons for their failings, he just wants peace and happiness.
This song was released about a year before my former-wife and I split up, and I used to listen to it a lot after the fact. I still always think of her when I hear it. Not out of nostalgia, or anything, but just because we had changed, and we had to deal with it. I think that is what the song is about. The lines…
Oh my, nothing else could have been done
He/she made his/her life a lie so
He/she might never have to know anyone
He/she made his/her life a lie, you know…
…perfectly describes the way our marriage fell apart, and the way we tried to hide from it before finally facing it.
Even though we are more than a decade beyond it all, I still just want to tell her that I just want us to be happy–wherever that leads us. Probably just the song pulling on the old heartstrings, but you get it. We share a son that we both adore, so we will never be too far from the other.
By-the-way, it’s been like 13 years since I first heard this song, and I still cannot do that impossible finger-picking that Elliott does.
Anyway, I know that I have posted a lot of music stuff lately, but I will get back to some serious writing very soon. Life has gotten very busy for me lately, and Sundays through Tuesdays are my busiest days.
Happy Wednesday, Everybody!